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The Perfect Autumn Palette with Juvia's Place

Thursday, 12 October 2017

I’m pretty sure that I’m a little bit late on the bandwagon with this product. Juvia’s Place is a brand that provides us with the most vibrant, rich and highly pigmented eyeshadow palettes. I’ve heard and seen a ton of YouTube videos featuring some of the incredible eyeshadows and I wanted to get my hands on them straight away. Don’t quote me on this but I believe Juvia’s Place was only available in the United States however Beauty Bay have recently launched the products in the UK.  

I recently purchased The Saharan Palette as it was the one that stood out to me the most. It consists of the most gorgeous warm toned shades which suit me better and not to mention, it’s perfect for autumn! What makes these palettes stand out to others is the bright yet beautiful packaging. It almost reminds me of some sort of hippie vibe and it’s immediately different from any other typical palettes that I own. It’s also compact enough to fit inside handbags which makes it perfect for travelling with, the only downside would be the fact that it has no mirror so you’d most likely need to bring your own compact mirror along with you if you were to ever travel with this.

The texture and consistency of these shadows are everything I’d want in a palette. They’re smooth, buttery and seem to blend out like an absolute dream. I have also noticed that you don’t get too much fallout with these either which is always a great bonus to any eyeshadow. In the palette you’ve got the 4 matte shades in which three of them make the most perfect transition colours as well as your traditional matte black which I feel like every palette needs. You’ve also got the 8 shimmer shades, some of which are more metallic than others but overall they’re the most pigmented eyeshadows I have ever tried. The consistency reminds me of the makeup geek foiled eyeshadows but with more glitter and shimmer. 

I have had so much fun playing around with this palette, creating a lot of different looks. I would say that for someone who tends to be a bit boring with eyeshadows (me) I only like to stick to nudes and browns, this is the most perfect palette to start off with and help me venture out into creating more fun looks. I can’t stop using this palette and I suggest everyone to try one of Juvia’s Place palettes out to see that the hype is truly worth it.
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What is your perfect palette for Autumn?

"A" Is For Autumn

Sunday, 24 September 2017

Autumn is here guys. It’s mine and many other’s favourite time of the year. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy the summer days however I appreciate a cosy night in a lot more. Yay to September currently being here and an even bigger YAY to October which is just around the corner and I’m slightly (by that I mean VERY) excited about it.

Here’s a few reasons as to why we should all be pretty damn excited about autumn this year…

1.      Those loose, knitted jumpers that are just the most comfy items of clothing to wear on the colder days. Especially the oversized jumpers that can be worn over leggings or tucked into some mom jeans. Yes please.

2.      The candles that smell of pumpkins or sugar donuts just never get old. I would happily have these scents around my bedroom all year round but I feel like they are a bit more special around this time of year. If only we had a Bath and Body Works in the UK I’d be buying all the autumn candles and my bank balance would probably hate me.

3.      Slouching around the house in fluffy pyjamas or a onesie as soon as you get home from work whilst drinking endless amounts of tea.

4.      Speaking of hot drinks. Hot chocolates with whipped cream and marshmallows.

5.      I will forever love dark lipsticks however I love them just that little bit more during autumn. Give me all the plums and browns and I’ll be happy.

6.      Blankets. I will never get enough of blankets. Tartan patterned blankets though are just on another level. Who doesn’t love snuggling up in blankets?

7.      One word, Halloween. It’s one of my favourite days. I love carving pumpkins and I love visiting a scare festival each year. Can we also talk about Bonfire Night? Fireworks are so pretty to watch.

8.      For those that are hard-core Netflix watchers like myself you’ll know that Riverdale Season 2 airs in October and I’m over the moon about it! It feels like I’ve been waiting ages for this new season, I just want jughead back on my screen please and thank you.

9.      I’m not sure what it is about autumn that makes me want to bake anything and everything. It could be a mixture of the Great British Bake Off and the fact that I just love food in general, but I’m always wanting to bake. Kind of fancy an apple crumble now…

10.  Saying hello to my electric blanket which always makes an appearance around this time of the year.

11.  Give me all the comfort food. Steak, pies and mash. Also is it too early to start eating mince pies? I think not.

12.  Getting ready for the lead up to Christmas! How exciting knowing that now we’re in autumn, Christmas is just around the corner.

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What do you love the most about Autumn? 

Little Life Update: New Beginnings, Custom Media Kits & September Goals

Sunday, 3 September 2017

Oh hey, September. Can we just take a moment to acknowledge the fact that it’s already September? Where has the time gone? I honestly feel like this year has completely flown by and it’s kind of scary. Can we also just acknowledge that I’m actually writing a blog post, for those of you that read my little blog and follow me on social media then 1) Thank you and 2) You’d know that I have been having some blogging struggles when it comes down to producing content and just genuinely trying to find the time. 

Even though the year has gone by within a blink, I can honestly say it’s been one of the best years so far. I turned 21, I got engaged and in this particular month I’m starting a new chapter. I’ve been a waitress/door host at a restaurant for 2 years and although I really liked it to start off with, I ended up hating it in the long run – don’t get me wrong because the people I worked with are great and I know I’ve made some friends for life however the job itself was completely draining and I just got so fed up of working evenings that I thought it was time for a change altogether. Tomorrow is the start of my new job as a trainee optical assistant and I couldn’t be happier about it, I have no idea what to expect but at this moment in time I’m feeling nothing but positive about it. One of my main goals throughout September is to work as hard as I can and to learn as much as possible. 

One thing that I have been enjoying in my spare time is creating Media Kits and after a lot of practice with creating some of my own, I am now offering to create Custom Media Kits for other bloggers completely free of charge. I’m in the middle of making one for the wonderful Debra-Bow and I’ve had so much fun in the process. If you want to get in touch with me about Media Kits then please feel free to contact me at: fadingtulips@yahoo.co.uk or DM me on Twitter.

I know we are only on the 3rd day of this month however I’m feeling super inspired and motivated that I have come up with some personal and blog goals which I would love to achieve in September and hopefully throughout the rest of the year:

Spend more time with my Fiancé: Having this new job means I don’t have to work evening shifts anymore which also means I can spend some much needed time with my fiancé. He works days and I usually worked evenings which meant that we only saw each other properly at night before bed. I’m really looking forward to finishing work at 6pm and spending the evening at the cinema or just chilling at home watching a Netflix series together.

Buy a Domain: This is well and truly overdue. I have been blogging for over 3 years and I still haven’t managed to buy my own domain name. Not sure why or what’s stopping me however it will happen. I guess I’m just scared in case my blog doesn’t work properly afterwards but I don’t know. If anyone has any tips on domains then please comment below, I have no clue what I’m doing when it comes to that stuff!

De-clutter my makeup: As a lover of makeup and being a beauty blogger, I love to collect makeup. On the other hand I’m also such a hoarder which means I will keep everything and anything even if it’s probably out of date (so gross) and even if its stuff that I just haven’t touched and I know I won’t use. I like to keep everything. It’s a massive problem because now my collection has become too overgrown for my storage drawers and it looks like a complete mess.

Stop buying takeaways: Yes Charlotte, this includes those late night trips to McDonalds. I need to stop wasting my money on takeaways especially when I could be saving for more important things. It got to the point where I ate takeaways once or sometimes twice a week which is never good for you, I want to cut it down completely to around twice a month because you know, I can’t give up on Domino’s completely.

Get myself a new camera: I have a perfectly fine working Nikon camera, however I’ve had my eye on either an Olympus Pen or a Canon for a while now as the quality is a lot better and I love how you can change the lenses and it has WIFI. I know that it’ll be an investment but it has been something I have wanted for a while now and I know I’ll use it all the time therefore it’ll be worth it. Just need to get saving!

Photos taken by Taylor and Sarah: tmaemakeup and Ohitsare

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Do you have any goals for September? How’s your year been so far? 

Skincare Saviours

Tuesday, 29 August 2017

For a while my skin has been playing up and has been having frequent mood swings I guess you can say. One day, I’d wake up with normal skin and a glowing complexion then next day it would be full of redness and the occasional spot. Even I have no idea what’s been going on but it’s been very annoying to say the least.

Although it’s finally starting to control itself, I have been using these two products which I feel like have been making a huge difference within the appearance of my skin. 



I first heard about this wonderful product through Katy’s blog – LexiLife. It honestly has done wonders for my dry skin and I now can’t imagine myself without this (bit dramatic but very true). This is a liquid peel which is essentially an exfoliator for your skin however it’s in a liquid form as the name suggests. I don’t know about you but when I think of exfoliators, I think of scrubs which can feel a little harsh on the skin and for someone who has always had sensitive skin, I like to steer clear of that. This tub of product is like magic, you simply use two pumps of product to massage into clean skin for around 20 seconds, and you can immediately see the little clumps of dry skin forming onto your face which sounds and looks gross yet its super satisfying at the same time. This is a gel to peel technology which traps and gently peels off impurities and dead skin cells to unveil healthy-looking bright skin. I immediately saw the difference in my skin straight after using with my skin looking more youthful and overall healthy rather than dull. I found that it also made a huge difference in how my makeup applied afterwards as well, it went on a lot smoother.

This product has become a life saviour especially during these warm weather days that we’ve had recently. Perfect for all skin types, this little gem helps to soothe your skin in dehydrating conditions, gives your skin a quick boost or you can even use it to set your makeup after application. I love the finish it gives to my skin after I use it to set my makeup, it takes away any leftover powder from your skin leaving it looking healthy and dewy. Fun tip: I like spraying this straight onto my Real Techniques sponge before blending my foundation in, it gives a more dewy finish to the foundation and I’m all about dewy skin at the moment. It says on the website that you can also spray this into your hair when it’s a bit dry, I haven’t tried that yet however I’m very intrigued by it. I feel like everyone needs a good facial spray in their collection and I’d highly recommend this one!


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What are your skincare saviours at the moment?

L'Oreal Botanicals

Tuesday, 15 August 2017

Fun Charlotte Fact: I’m lazy when it comes to my hair. There, I said it. I could spend hours doing my makeup and getting all glam but as soon as it gets down to doing my hair, I actually cannot be bothered. Although saying that, ever since I’ve chopped all my hair off to shoulder length I’ve been getting a lot better with giving it more TLC (which it desperately needs) mainly because it’s easier to manage. 

Each time I pop into Boots to pick up a new shampoo and conditioner, I seem to come across L’Oréal’s latest Botanicals hair range – yet I’ve never bothered to pick it up until now. I have seen all the hype about this product over on Twitter and Instagram that I wanted to try it out for myself to see if it lived up to all the good expectations. 
 The whole point of Botanicals Fresh Care range is to produce luxurious hair care products which are infused with natural ingredients and aromatic fragrances. I don’t think I’ve ever owned a shampoo that smells this unique before, it’s more along the lines of a fresh herbal scent rather than the basic fruity scents which is such a nice change. The one that I picked up in particular smells a bit minty. Each of the Botanical formulas are free from silicone's, parabens and colourants. The shampoo and treatment bottles are made from 100% recycled materials.

The range comes in 4 key Botanicals: Safflower for dry hair, Geranium for dull hair, Camelina for frizzy hair and Coriander for weak hair. Each ingredient are sustainably sourced and infused into the formulas so you can find your ‘hairs better nature’. 

 I have only been using this range for just over a week therefore I can’t give an in depth review just yet, however as far as first impressions go I am loving it and I think my hair is loving it too! I specifically went for the Safflower range as my hair is a bit on the dry side at the moment and I wanted something that would bring back the hydration and softness in my strands. This product is infused with a concoction of safflower, soya and coconut oils to leave the hair feeling nourished, replenished and soft to the touch.

My hair tends to get very tangled after washing however I’ve noticed since using this product, my hair doesn’t feel as knotted and I can brush through it without tugging at my hair. I’m also a sucker for anything that smells lush on the hair and this product definitely exceeds that expectation of mine. I’d wash my hair in the morning, style it for the day and I can still smell the scent on my hair before I go to bed. 

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This range is on the luxurious side of L’Oréal and it retails for £7.99 each (for the shampoo and conditioner) I’ve also noticed that they have a bunch of different hair treatments such as: Softening Ointment and Rich Infusion Masque with retail for around £9.99. There’s sure to be a product that suits your hair needs so I’d highly recommend trying out this range if you haven’t already. I’d also love to hear about what products you use to keep your hair staying healthy! 

Five Things That Are Making Me Happy

Wednesday, 9 August 2017

 PHOTOS TAKEN BY : SARAH @ohitssare
Well hello there, for some reason I feel like I haven’t managed to sit down and write a post for a while even though it’s only been a week. I have been wanting to start posting on this site twice a week however I just haven’t had the time to sit down and write posts, not to mention that I’ve had EXTREME writers block for the last few days. I am back (hopefully lol) and I can’t wait to start producing more content for this site. With that being said, let’s get on with the post…

I wanted to write this particular post as I feel like a lot has changed within the past couple of weeks and I love having a place to reflect on how things are going which I can then look back on to see if anything has improved. To me, my blog is like my diary – I love sharing new beauty content with you however it’s also a place for me to share my thoughts and express on certain things. Today I’m sharing with you five things that are making me happy right now and I encourage you to do the same, I’m all about staying positive in every situation therefore if you’re feeling a bit down in the dumps you should take a few minutes out of your day to write what makes you happy on a daily basis. It’s very therapeutic.

A NEW JOB
At the start of the year, one of my main goals was to get a new job and preferably a full time one. I’m not going to say too much but I just wasn’t happy with the job that I’m currently in and decided it was best for me to change. After a good few weeks of applying, I finally landed an interview… then a second interview… then a JOB OFFER. I start at the beginning of September and I’m over the moon about it. I can’t wait to start this new journey in my life.

GOOD FRIENDSHIPS
I had an amazing group of friends back when I was in school, and I knew that friendships would come and go, and that it would be completely different when we all go our separate ways. The only person I’ve stayed in contact with the whole way through is Taylor (tmaemakeup) - my best friend that I just can’t imagine my life without her. Two years back when I started my current job, I genuinely thought that I wasn’t going to make any friends however as some co-workers went and new ones started, I have managed to form some wonderful friendships which I know will stay with us once I leave my job.

FLORIDA 2018
The holiday that I have been looking forward to the most. Myself, my best friend and her family along with my fiancée are currently in the middle of planning a holiday to Florida next year. I know! How frickin’ exciting is that? I have always wanted to visit America and to know that I’m finally able to see the country with my favourite people is just incredible to me. Harry Potter World is the first thing on my agenda… Cheesecake Factory being a close second.

MY 21ST BIRTHDAY
In two weeks’ time I’ll be turning the big 21. It kind of makes me feel like an adult. My fiancée is taking me on a trip around London which is one of my favourite cities and we’re going to all the landmarks as well as some cute little cafes and streets which will be perfect for those Instagram pictures. I want to visit the Peggy Porschen Café and get that cliché blogger picture as well as Neal’s Yard in Covent Garden, I just think it’s going to be such a cute day. If you have any suggestion of cute little places to visit in London then please comment them down below!

ED SHEERAN TICKETS
If you follow me on Twitter then you’d probably seen that I managed to get Ed Sheeran Tickets for his Wembley Tour next year! I waited in the online queue for around 40 minutes and didn’t get through so I completely gave up, but then my fiancée tried it and he got through within 20 minutes, I was completely shocked and I did a huge squeal when we got them. Ed Sheeran has always been one of my favourite music artists and he’s the most amazing songwriter ever. I’m super excited.

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I love having something to look back on when I’m feeling down in the dumps and I encourage anyone to write a little post like this too. It’s great to see a reflection of what’s going on in your life right this moment and it’s good to compare it to other months.

Zoella's NEW Jelly and Gelato Range

Tuesday, 1 August 2017


Each and every one of Zoella’s beauty collections always has me jumping for joy when I see it. I went crazy for her Sweet Inspirations range that when I ran out, I ended up re-purchasing some more which is weird for me considering I never usually re-purchase the same body products. Zoella’s new Jelly and Gelato range has completely topped last year’s one and I just don’t even have the words to describe how beautiful it is. This is one of my favourite themes she’s done for far as it screams summer and brings back so many memories of eating Jelly and Ice cream in the garden as a little kid. If you haven’t tried anything from this collection yet, you should. You will fall in love.

You can clearly tell how much thought and effort went into this new collection. The thing that drew me in the most was the retro packaging as well as the quirky product names like “shower sauce” or “body pudding” – I mean c’mon how freaking cute? Not to mention the gorgeous pastel colours incorporated into the packaging to welcome the summer vibe. I didn’t know what to expect with the scent of the collection and I was completely shocked when I first smelt the products because it’s such a unique scent yet smells heavenly. If you tried her Sweet Inspirations range then you’d know how sweet that scent was, this one on the other hand has more of a fruity sweetness to it. Zoe decided on an elderflower and double cream scent, as soon as I opened up one of the products I instantly thought that the scent was a mixture of jelly and those fruit salad sweets!

My first thoughts on the Cream Scrub was that it looked like orange sorbet. It’s a wonderful moisturising body scrub mixed with ‘polishing sprinkles’ – SPRINKLES! Infused with extracts of Elderflower and Pomegranate. I personally don’t like body scrubs that are too harsh on the skin therefore this one was perfect for me, it has a balm like texture to it and the sprinkles are so small that you can hardly see them in the scrub. It also feels super gentle on the skin but does an incredible job of exfoliating, leaving you with baby soft skin and a beautiful lasting scent.

I wasn’t expecting much from the Shower Sauce as it’s just a regular shower gel, although it does smell amazing and manages to lather up really well. It doesn’t give off too much of a scent afterwards but I don’t mind that as the body scrub does that for me. I recon it could be too ‘sickly’ if this had a stronger scent to it.

I was most looking forward to the Body Pudding, it sounds amazing and it looks amazing. It comes in a gorgeous tub and I was surprised to see a bunch of little pink sprinkles inside which burst and sink into your skin as you use it. I don’t like moisturisers that sit on top of the skin for hours, but this one sinks in within a few seconds. I was so impressed. You only need a small amount to cover your arms or legs and the scent seems to last for hours! I used this in my morning shower and I could still smell it on me as I was eating dinner that evening and I didn’t re-apply it.


Have you tried the new Zoella Jelly and Gelato range? 

Improving My Skin with Palmer's Skincare Range

Thursday, 27 July 2017


For someone who suffers with dry skin, I have an obsession with hydrating skincare products. I am a huge fan of the original Palmers Cocoa Butter Formula lotion so as you could imagine, I was super excited when Palmers offered to send me some goodies from their skincare range. So if you’re anything like me and you’re wanting to improve dehydrated skin, then look no further than these affordable products. Warning: You will become obsessed.

I seem to go on and on about how I don’t like using wipes for makeup removal as I find it too harsh on my skin therefore as an alternative, I stick to micellar waters or oil based cleansers. This is where Palmer’s UltraGentle Facial Cleansing Oil* comes in handy. I use two generous pumps of this to massage in circular motions on a damp, makeup-caked face then I rinse thoroughly with warm water. Despite wearing waterproof mascara, this cleanser dissolved impurities and all traces of makeup within seconds leaving my skin feeling soft and cleansed whilst also giving it that glorious Palmer’s Cocoa Butter smell which I adore. This cleanser contains 8 pure oils: Apricot, Argan, Soybean, Sesame, Sweet Almond, Grape Seed, Jojoba and Rice Bran oil. The cleanser doesn’t leave any excess oil on the skin which is something I’m very fussy about and it claims to be suitable for all skin types as well as safe for sensitive skin AND it’s cruelty free!
To me, there’s nothing better than pampering your skin with a face mask once a week and I’m pretty sure I have found my new favourite mask. Palmer’s Purifying Enzyme Mask* helps to purify, exfoliate and smooth your skin. I don’t know why but clay masks are my all-time favourites, I get a weird sense of satisfaction every time I use one (is that weird lol?). This mask uses natural Kaolin Clay which lifts out impurities within minutes to deeply purify and cleanse the skin whilst Papaya Enzyme gently exfoliates resulting in baby soft skin. It says you can use this mask up to 3 times a week however I only like to use it once a week for an extra pampering treat! You only need to apply a thin layer of this and it completely dries in the next 10-15 minutes. You can then rinse off with warm water to reveal your soft and cleansed skin. I loved how this mask didn’t seem to dry my skin out any more than what it already was.

This next product is what I was most excited about trying. I’m going to admit that I have never tried any face oils in the past purely for the fact that most of them seem very expensive. Palmer’s Multi-Effect Perfecting Facial Oil* is on the market for just £9.99 which I think is an amazing price considering it contains the added benefits of Retinol (Vitamin A) which is an extremely effective ingredient that helps to visibly increases the appearance of firmness, diminish the look of fine lines and wrinkles, smooths and refines the surface of the skin and improves uneven skin tone. It’s very hard to find a product which contains Retinol for such an affordable price range these days! I have seen a massive improvement with my skin right from day one. My redness has reduced and the pores on my nose seems less noticeable. I suffer with major smile lines around my mouth which I have always been self-conscious about however I’ve noticed a huge improvement in which I don’t notice them as much anymore, not forgetting to mention that my skin appears more radiant and healthy. I use around 3-4 drop of this on my skin every night before I go to sleep so that I give it a good amount of time for it to do its job and sink in.

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Have you tried anything from Palmer’s NEW Skincare Range yet?

Cherishing Memories with Printiki

Friday, 21 July 2017


Sometimes we forget about all the amazing things we’ve done in life so we like to take pictures to treasure those memories. I have an Instax Mini Polaroid camera however it’s quite chunky and I don’t always like to carry it around with me wherever I go, instead I tend to just take pictures on my iPhone. Polaroid style pictures are everywhere right now, they have never gone out of fashion. Ever since I could remember I’ve been wanting to create a scrapbook full of all my favourite memories and life events which I can happily look back on through pictures. When the lovely lady Beatriz over at Printiki* contacted me, I jumped at the chance to work with them after seeing all the amazing reviews and the gorgeous prints.

If you haven’t guessed already, Printiki is a photo printing service which can link straight to your social media accounts so that you can print off some of your favourite pictures. Printiki offers many fashionable print styles to choose from such as:

  • Retro Square M (4x4”)
  • Retro Regular M (6x4”)
  • Retro Square L (5x5”)
  • Retro Regular L (7x5”)
  • Retro Regular XL (8x6”)
  • Square M (4x4”)
  • Regular M (6x4”)
  • Square L (5x5”)
  • Regular L (7x5”)
  • Regular XL (8x6”) 

As well as being able to create a variety of posters and photo books. The retro prints are more of a polaroid style whereas the square prints have a thin white boarder around them, making it a perfect fit for your Instagram photos.

I am very fussy when it comes down to the cost of prints which is why I don’t tend to use photo printing companies that much as I can find some to be very overpriced for what they are. Printiki is a service that I will never stop using as it’s only £5.50 for 20 M prints and you can add an extra 10 for just £2.75… such a huge bargain! Not to mention that my prints arrived just 3 days after I ordered them. This is such a great price point especially as the quality of the pictures are insanely good. You have the option to choose either a matte or glossy finish, I optioned for the gloss and it gave my photos a more professional look to them with the beautiful added shine.

There’s so much that you can do with your prints. I went for a scrapbook as I’ve always been a very creative person therefore I enjoy decorating and adding to a scrapbook but it also gives me a chance to constantly look back on some of my favourite moments. You could make DIY wall art, photo bunting or a photo collage, the options are endless.

If you’d like to have a look around and buy some prints for yourself or even as a gift to someone special then head straight over to the Printiki website. As a special little treat for you guys, I have an exclusive voucher code that first time buyers can use at the checkout to receive FREE SHIPPING which means you get 20 medium prints for just the price of £5.50!

Voucher Code: X77JNFE8

Also, don’t forget to follow Printiki on their social media platforms for some photo print inspiration:
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I hope you have tons of fun creating some super cute prints for yourself! 

Let's Talk: Body Confidence and Learning to Love Myself

Tuesday, 18 July 2017

*All photos were taken by Sarah: ohitssare 
Twitter: @ohitssare
Instagram: ohitssare_*

I’ve been sat here looking at a blank page for a while now. You know when you have so much that you want to say but you’re not sure how to put those thoughts into words? That’s me right this moment. I’m also quite anxious about writing this post as 1) it’s a lot different to what I normally write and 2) I have never been very open about this subject therefore the thought of sharing it on the internet seems daunting.

My body weight is something I have constantly struggled with back in school which was 5 years ago and it’s been an ongoing battle ever since. Let’s just say, I wasn’t exactly the slimmest of girls and I’m still not. I’ve lost weight since but I’m still not what you would consider as ‘slim’. During school, I got bullied about my weight in person and over social media. The words ‘fat’ came out of people’s mouths like word vomit and when someone starts saying something about you constantly, you start to believe it for yourself. That’s when the anxiety kicks in.

I’ve never been a confident person as it is, therefore being put down and made to feel small just makes everything worse. I’m the sort of person that tries to find the positive in every situation possible but sometimes that’s hard to do when you’re getting such nasty words thrown at you. I remember I would always try to just ignore them and brush it off but as soon as I got home, I’d break down and cry for hours on end. Thinking to myself “Why do I have to be so fat?” or “I need to stop eating” – thinking back to that point in my life makes me sad and angry. To think that I let such heartless people get to me like that just angers me. I was very shy and if I’m honest, I didn’t know how to stick up for myself back then and I didn’t really want to give them the light of day as I knew they were trying to get a reaction out of me. I wasn’t willing to give it to them.

For years I have battled with my weight shifting up and down due to contraceptive pills, stress and just generally eating either less or more. There was a point in my life where I wasn’t eating enough therefore I was always tired and would occasionally faint and it still scares me to this day that I let myself get like that. I am finally at a weight I’m comfortable with, I’m a happy size 12 and I have learnt to accept that I’m never going to be a size 8 but that’s okay. It does make me sad however that I feel like social media has played a huge part in making my self-esteem lower as I remember seeing so many magazines on how to achieve the “perfect” body or magazines ripping apart other celebrities just because they put a bit of weight on. It makes me so upset thinking younger girls are reading stuff like that probably thinking to themselves that they need to look a certain way.
With the support of my wonderful friends, family and fiancé, I have learnt to accept my body for what it is. Of course, I still get those days where I feel insecure (just like everyone has those days) but each day I try to think of the positives. I’m learning to love my stretch marks and embracing my curves, and I’m slowly learning not to give a crap about what other people think of me. I need to worry about loving myself first instead of loving the idea of other people loving me.

I guess what I’m trying to get across in this post is, you are all beautiful. No matter what shape or size you are. I think it’s time we all start appreciating how we look and learn to love ourselves instead of comparing ourselves to others. Never did I ever think I’d be sat here posting pictures of full body shots over the internet, it would be something I didn’t have the confidence for back in the day. It just goes to show how far I’ve come.
                                                                                                                                                                       
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“Self-confidence is the best outfit”

“To me, beauty is about being comfortable in your own skin. It’s about knowing and accepting who you are”
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